Monday, February 28, 2011

I've Learned

I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.

I've learned that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned that it's a lot easier to react than it is to think.

I've learned that persistence can lead you to nowhere.

I've learned that what others think is wrong may be right for you.

I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I've learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I've learned that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves, get farther in life.

I've learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.

I've learned that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Insa



I had an intense craving of watching A Millionaire's First Love last night. It's probably my fourth time watching it. I still cried a river.

Holding On To You


"I think that the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don't change when everybody else does"

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

In My Head

Because it's 4 AM. And here i am, blogging about the stuffs that's keeping me up at this hour. I sometimes wish i didn't have a head just to not think about things...

1)Some people are just heartless. I mean, what happened to the old saying "Treat others like you want to be treated."? To be blasting it out on Twitter or Facebook ain't gonna make it better because really, you're just making yourself look like a fool. I feel like this is a new form of bullying. You people are smart and educated, why hate and disparage others for no reason, especially those who are disabled? It infuriates me to see that people like you exist. Seriously, ya'll are a disappointment to society.

2)Why do i always get the feeling that i'm trying too hard when i shouldn't? Why is that i seem to care more? Is it because i have too many expectation in people? Am i asking for too much? Yet i'm not the type of person who ask for a lot,but simply to be taking into consideration. I constantly get myself disappointed over the smallest thing. Clearly, it seems that it happened so many times that i've become immune to it. I never learn my lesson on this one.

3)I'm sorry that I'm a let down. I'm sorry to have said the things i had to say today. It was as emotionally draining to me as it were to you; mom . I'll probably have the word guilt stamped across my forehead for a very long time or as long as i can make it up to you. But a person can only hold so much in. I was becoming my own enemy. I can't mold myself into being the perfect "older sister" or "daughter". I know that I owe you big time. It may take a while for you to trust me again, but i'll continue to prove you otherwise and that i actually know what i'm doing. The world is only scary if we make it scary. I'm sorry, again.

Monday, February 21, 2011

ウィッシュ


That wish have not change. 2011 better treat me right...

Friday, February 18, 2011

April 24th, 2010

The weather today was surprisingly warm. Although it was cloudy and raining this morning, the sky eventually cleared out in the afternoon; displaying an almost perfect canvas as the sun started to set down. I don't if it was the codeine in my cold medicine or the nostalgic sound of Adele's Someone Like You playing in the background, but right there at that moment, as i laid on my bed looking at that sky through my bedroom window, i slowly got myself remembering the good, the bad and the nasty. But mostly the good; the days where i was at the peak of my happiness. April 24th, 2010 being one of them.

I still remember that day like it was yesterday. From the words that were exchanged to the laughter, from mutual understanding to new level of fluttering feelings, i honestly believe that i was the happiest girl out there as silly as this may sound. I wouldn't call that moment magic. It sounds too unrealistic. But it definitely felt real. The moment was right.

Because of today, i started writing down a list of all good moments i can remember in my diary. Whenever i'm not feeling well or insecure about something, i can look back and remember those times because i believe there's a reason for everything. Being a nostalgic person as i am, i seek comfort in those faint memories that a lot of people tend to forget. The most insignificant thing to one person, is the most significant thing to me. I have questioned myself many time of all the decisions that i took so far, and some people might not understand. But my motive is simple; I believe in happy beginnings.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Like I Do


credits: weheartit

Grew to Love Him



I was in the car with my parents the other day on our way to have lunch when this song came on the radio. It definitely brought back a lot of childhood memories. Has it already been more than 20 years? My father was singing along to the song in a bad broken English, while my mother was laughing helplessly at him. Right then, at that moment I saw the love that they had for each other and I couldn't help but envy them. Despite the unusual circumstance on how they met and came to marry each other, I admire my mother for the decision she took.

When i asked her how she felt now, she answered: "I don't believe in equality. There will always be one person in that relationship who will love the other one more. You have to feel granted of what this person is able to bring you; happiness being one of them. I grew to love him because of this and it was a risk worth taken."

Alexander Wang F/W 2011

New York = Alexander Wang. I'm not going to argue with anyone about this because this boy (yes boy, cause he has the energy of a happy 6 year old on Christmas Day)had by far the strongest show of the season. From the boyfriend blazer-turned-fur jacket to the satin skirt of slashed ribbons, clearly you get the heightened sense of luxury in his Fall 2011 Ready-to-Wear collection as well as his signature casual aesthetic. You get to see how each of the pieces are magically morphed from chunky hand-knit to fine silk lining; an effect rarely seen. It was a brilliant concoction which definitely had me falling over. ♥










Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Blacklisted

I'm usually not the type of person who holds a grudge against another person. But sometimes, a simple action can easily put you in my blacklist. So I was recalling a conversation that I had with this girl. It went like so:

Girl: "Have you ever been?" (referring to a place)
Me: "No, but i've heard a lo-"
[Girl cuts into my sentence]
Girl: "Yeah, nah." (snobbing mockingly)
"You don't look like the type that goes there anyway."

WTF?! Not only it added oil to the fire that was already there because bitch refuse to shake my hand, but she had the guts to judge me without even knowing me? Just because you're so outgoing and seemed to have experience it all, doesn't make you a person who knows better. I know that i sound really taken back by what happened, but if you were in my shoes you'd totally see the sneered look she pulled when i offered her my hand.

Because of this, i simply have this driven desire to prove this person wrong. I just cannot wait until the day i meet her again, show her what a so-called nice girl like myself can do, and mostly disinfect my hands right in front of her face before and after shaking her hands.

This is what happens when you get on the bad side of a Libra!

Empire State of Fashion







This week, I felt like a kid in a candy store every time i got my daily updates on NYFW. Sadly all of this comes to an end tomorrow, but nonetheless it was a spectacular week. We're expecting to see a lot of nude and gray hues for Fall/Winter 2011, as well as splashes of ruby red and navy tones here and there. We're also seeing a lot of melange of summery materials such as chiffon and silk put together with the knits, furs, and tweeds; which in my opinion is an extraordinary combination.

Alexander Wang, DVF, Prabal Gurung, Rodarte, Altuzzara and of course, Marc Jacobs were amongst my favorites of the season. Genius would be too small of a word to describe each of the collections. I still ask myself how in the world they do it. I guess it takes a creative gifted mind and dedication to pull of such art.

Waiting

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CHS
: Please, I told you to wait...

HYJ: Wait? For what? For your feelings to return? What should i do in the meantime...should i pray then?
[pause]
HYJ: "Please, don't hurt that girl anymore. Don't make her hesitate anymore. Please...until his feelings return, give her patience"- Should i pray and wait like that?

I bawled my eyes out at this scene...

Friday, February 11, 2011

The Fourteenth of the Month


Meet Ben&Jerry, my valentine for the past 5 years (except last year...it was New Years). This year wouldn't be any different from the years before. As long as i get to have the least interaction with the human race and isolate myself carefully at home, i'll be able to survive this commercially-fueled holiday yet another year. I know, i know. I'm being silly and i shouldn't even care. But trust me, if you were in my shoes, you'd understand.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Scheming Duo


Blair: You and I bonded over a mutual love of scheming. And burlesque. Find something that you and Reyna both share. Let your guard down. Show her a side of you that no one else sees. I hear girls love that.
Chuck: Open up and she'll be forced to follow suit.
Blair: And once you hook her, reel her in, gut her emotionally and throw the carcass overboard.
Chuck: You really do have a gift.


Their lines always deliver :)

Boudoir

Lingerie is my guilty pleasure. The past year, i have probably spent the same amount of money on undergarments like i have on food. And when i say the same amount, i literally mean that my lingerie drawer is packed with bras and panties that i've collected and have NOT even worn yet. Some of it still have its tags on! Yet the temptation is stronger than me. I may sound silly when i say this, but i feel happy every time i get out of the store with my small Jacob's bag, knowing that i bought something that can make me feel as pretty and sexy as anyone out there.

I've said it many many times before, and i will say it again; underwear is a basic human right. Therefore we (women) all deserve something that can make us feel beautiful and confident. I like to see it this way; lingerie is somehow similar to a packing of a present, the more beautiful it is the more tempting the woman looks wearing it. Secondly, lingerie should bring some intrigue, like a long skirt – every man knows what’s under it but still wants to look there to prove his guess. Men get their ego boost by going to the gym and working out. Women get theirs by wearing the one thing that can make them feel desired. Am i right?

So girls, whether you're single, dating or married, treat yourself to a nice piece of lingerie. Great lingerie lets you be whoever you want to be. Have fun with it!








(p.s Got myself the exact same set shown in the second and last picture hehe LOVEEE IT!)

Strings Attached

"They say the universe has a great sense of humor. That sometimes having your dreams come true can feel like a nightmare. Because getting what you want always come with strings attached." - GG

Rachel Zoe F/W 2011

And so Rachel Zoe have finally seen that light at the end of the tunnel; making the transition from A-list stylist to designer. Knowing how flamboyant she can be when she styles her clients, i was quite surprise at the simplicity and the everyday pieces from her collection. I find it to be very Zara-esque, but don't we all love Zara? Here's a glimpse at her debut collection.









Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Baby Good Night



Now, i don't know about you...but DAYUMMM! Not only do the guys look great and charming here, but the video itself is just fantastic. I got turned on. No jokes ;)

While we're at it with the kpop scene, this song has been on repeat for the past 3 days. It's one of the decent kpop song that i've listen in a while. Kpop has seriously been going down the drain ever since the entertainment companies have been pooping girl/boy bands every month or so. Kpop was soo much better back in the days -sigh-



To You: Guy in the Bus

I saw you again. For the first time in 4 years, i saw you again in the 148. Same stop. Same seat. There you sat. Right across from me. I was surprise to say the least. Not because you suddenly appeared again (I was actually the one who stopped taking the 148 due to a routine change) but because after all these years, you have not changed...

Ok, i lied. You've changed. But just a tad bit. Your taste in clothing seemed to have become more refine. You now sport the scruffy i-didn't-bother-shaving-this-morning look. Your arm and forearm seemed to have double its size, but very well proportioned. But everything else is still the same. Your stance, your smirk, your glance. From the way you would slightly slouch in the back of your seat to the way your eyebrows would frown when you're concentrating on your reading. It seems like it was just yesterday when you were still sporting your usual Kappa track pants and starting your first year of college at Marianopolis. But still, that boy is not any different from the young man that sat right in front of me this morning in the bus.

To be honest, I don't really have anything else to say other than you made my gloomy morning a good one. I had only wish at that moment though that i have gotten enough sleep the night before. I did not looked my best today and i was not something you would call attractive. Nonetheless, i'm looking forward to take the bus again and hopefully see you there.




P.S I'm not a stalker. I'm just...very observant :)

Derek Lam S/S 2011









GORGEOUS!