Jason Wu's signature tailoring and ladylike polish have been consistently dazzling enough since he founded his namesake brand four years to cement his status as a fully-realized fashion star, thanks in no small part to a certain First Lady. Since, the designer has expand to a full range of accessories including shoes, bags, glasses, and now, nail lacquers (a million YES!!!). Wu settled on no-nonsense runway manicure staple CND to collaborate on a limited edition Jason Wu Spring/Summer Collection. Lacquers are retailed for 47$ US and are only available online and in selected salons.
Life offer us the golden moments and horrible moments but those are the times that we learn from and should never regret. That is what I told myself all this time. Today makes it a year and I am still in the same position as i was 365 days ago. I did however have come to realize in this past year, that love is not as hard as some people make it to be and a lot of lessons were learned.
The thing i have learned most, is that pain and hardship have proven to me that my heart can feel a happiness i may never feel again. Now I know from my sufferings that the time period in which i did feel this happiness was worth it. When you are in the infinite state of infatuation, a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describe, you feel as though this life is worth living.
There are few moments in which i believe we find true contentment, a moment in which everything stands still and every thoughts or worries are gone, and you’re a single soul floating in a world of ecstasy. There is no real conclusion to this, because it’s indescribable.
He sees me. He sees who I am. He sees what others are too busy or too blind to see. He sees me. When I see problems, he sees the possibilities and solutions in them. An eye to see, a shoulder to lean on, a hand to hold, an ear to listen, a voice to comfort…a person to love. That's him. And I would not trade it for anything.
Now, every ounce of faith in me is devoted to the thought of reliving the happiness.
It comes and it goes. There are some days when i feel like i'm in a state of blissful happiness, cloud nine. And there are some other days when i feel as further away as i can ever be. Almost as if i'm walking on a very thin tread that can break anytime. Having doubt on something you thought was unquestionable is one of the world's worst feeling. Especially when i feel i'm being slip down the list of priorities. Not that i should always be. But I'm starting to wear thin and finding it harder to forgive. Truth is...i'm scared. I'm scared of history repeating itself. I'm scared of having no control. I'm scared of only being a plan B. I'm scared of the possibilities of an ending coming sooner than i thought. I'm scared of being strangers again.
A lot have changed. For the better? For the worst? I don't know, but what I do know is that i hate this feeling. I hate how time and dedication are not as valuable anymore. Cherished moments are nothing but faint memories. Everything is so close, yet unattainable.
I hate the feeling that i'm slowly fading into the background.
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there." -B
