Day 9 - Shopping Ban

School has started and already, i'm slacking on this challenge. Anyway...here i go again!

Day 9 - A photo of an item you last purchased.

I'm officially on shopping ban for the next 3 months. I really have to cut back on my spending, especially since i'll be working less now and put my credit card in a freezer like Rebecca Bloomwood in Confession's Of A Shopaholic. You know you have a problem when you spend more than $200 on cosmetics and lace undergarments (although i'd like to think that underwear is a basic human right). Here a glimpse at my recent purchases...

1- iPhone 4!!! :)
2- French Connection long sleeve lace top.
3- American Apparel's nail lacquer.
4- Lace undies ♥ I WANT MORE OF THESE! they're soo comfy and hella sexy at the same time ;)

Bringing Sexy Back

I’ve been secretly doing some personal research and i've been trying to get some answers to a question that i've been asking myself since last summer: Sex Appeal - Who, What, Why, How?

I certainly feel confuse every time I think about it. One of the reasons why i am so confuse is because i know that i DON'T possess that charm like some people would do at birth. Being trapped in my own body like most would call it "plain and ordinary'', i was never conscious of the amount of sex appeal a woman's body could have until I encountered certain revelations about it during the summer. All I can do is wonder when the heck am I going to have the confidence to pull it off? How can I pull it off without having to be skanky? Can I be sexy too?

Even though I don’t have a sex appeal, there are times when I do feel as sexy as a dirty cougar but I’ve always kept it to myself. That feeling would come and go sadly. But as a girl, we all want to feel desired and needed. We’re basically attention seeking whores whether we want it or not. Humans are very selfish when it comes to beauty and desire.I’m tired of hearing people calling me cute. I want to be seen as a confident person, as a woman. I want to be called hot/sexy for once. I want to be able to turn men on without having to take my clothes off and make them go ‘dayum’.

I was surprised when my friend told me that I had a strong sex appeal aura (i'd like to think he was coucou for saying such profanities). And from this moment, I couldn't help but wonder if the image i try to give and to project (the sweet, cute, shy-looking woman) is finally a deformation/misconception of the reality, or an exhausted effort to feel asexual?

Either way, i have got to get inspired somewhere and see exactly where this research would lead me. I think I’ll start by watching all the seasons of SDCG and maybe learn a few things.

Quintessence Of Comfort

It doesn't take much for a person like me to be happy, but these are the little moments that simply makes me appreciate what my life has to offer...

- Climbing under covers that had been freshly washed.
- Staying in my pj's all day on a Sunday.
- Having brunch with good company.
- Taking car ride strolls at night.
- Sitting in a book store and reading a random books.
- Sprawling on the couch and watch a Disney movie.
- Being in someone's embrace and cuddle for a very long time.

Chloé S/S 2011

Simplistic.Delightful. And this is why i love Chloé so much. (Got.to.get.leather.shorts!)

Au Revoir

Tes paroles n’ont pas d’ambiguïtés; elles sont justes et clairs. Ta pensée? Elle est toute aussi cohérente que tes paroles. Ta personne? Merveilleux. Unique. Je l’ai toujours su, mais je ne voulais pas l’admettre. Aujourd’hui, je serais égoïste et je voudrais que tu sache que tout cela me manquera. J’ai perdu un être cher. Un ami. Toi.

Avec toute honnêteté, tu m'as surpris. Pourtant je devrais le voir venir. Je n'ai même pas eu la chance de te dire au revoir correctement sans sentir la culpabilité s'assombrir sur moi. Je suis désolé. Je te l'ai dit plusieurs fois, et je le répèterais jusqu’à ce que ces mots s’épuise de mon corps…Je suis désolé. Pour tout.

J’ai tellement appris de ta part. Tu es vraiment une source d’inspiration inépuisable. Or je ne veux pas te quitter sur ces paroles amères, mais je veux plutôt te remercier pour les conversations merveilleuses, les leçons de la vie, les fous rires, les soirées beigne et café…bref, tous les moments dont nous avons partagé ensemble. Ce sont pour moi des bons souvenirs. Des souvenirs dont je vais chérir. Merci infiniment.

Je te souhaite la meilleure des chances, et si c’est voulu, nous allons finir par nous retrouvés au hasard.

A Different Answer

"Closure is a term created by people so they can ask the same questions over and over hoping that someday they might get a different answer." - Anonymous

Day 6, 7, 8 - Day Dream

Day 6 - A picture of an animal you would like as a pet.

Yes, super unrealistic but totally awesome! Ever since Mulan came out, i remember telling my mom how we should have a dragon as a pet. I would actually want Mushu if i had to pick. He's comical, overconfident, and impulsive yet does everything to help and protect Mulan through toughest times. Mushu would make an excellent pet/friend :)

Day 7 - Your dream wedding.
4 things:
- Marrying my perfect someone.
- Close friends and family.
- Vera Wang dress.
- Dancing to this song with my daddy

Day 8 - A song to match your mood.
Officially been on repeat for the past 3 days. Bff's bday is coming veryyyy soon ;)

Day 5 - Two Years

Day 5 - A photo of yourself two years ago.
This is me; two years ago on Christmas Eve. It's hard to tell if a person has changed or not with a 2 years old picture. I mean i could have taken this picture just now and have people believe that it's recent. Physically, i have not changed. I did however matured a lot. 2009 had a few glitches here and there, but overall it was a good year for me; received credits for my hard work and got a promotion at my job, spent an amazing summer with my closest friends, renewed an old friendship, discovered the many aspects of love... I believe that i was a lot happier then. When everything is all new, you have so many expectations and the feeling you get is thrilling. The beginnings are always pure, virgin and untainted...almost blissful.