Here's the situation

Need i say more? All and all, i'm a lot happier now.

One by one, a chain of memories would parade down the deep crease of my mind. Some marching to a familiar tune and childhood smiles, while most are recollection of pain and tears. Flashes of delicate embraces, the scent of blooming flowers and the light summer breezes. His quiet laugh, his warm smile and that long, deep gaze of his would dance lightly in my mind.

Yet, as each painted a pleasant portrait that struck my heart, each also held a weapon that was ready to attack with an even greater blow. Making me realize the harsh fact that my life was far from a dream.

Slow motion

We started talking again. Some of the people around me couldn't get it why i am doing this. But i am. I'm talking to him again. I've once told myself that either way, i would have to face him in the future and talk to him again. As of now, i don't know where he stands. I for one know that it can't go back to the way things were before. No matter how much he tries. We haven't talked about the cause of our "separation" so far. Thank god. I'm still sensitive about that particular subject. But i have thought about the possibilities of bringing it up to him without having me asking: what? why? and how?. Even though i've lost the person i cared the most at that time, i gained a lot from the pain he had put me through all those years. I find it a bit risky though. He knows me so much. More than i know myself! So sometimes, he catches me off guard and all the awkwardness between us is gone within a flash. I find myself being comfortable around him again. He wanted to see me and talk face to face. Go for a walk and eat ice cream afterwards. We used to do that when we were younger. We'd go for ice cream whenever we didn't feel good. -sigh- I'm feeling super nostalgic.