Day Fourteen, Fifteen

Your Earliest Memory


I was mischievous i was little. I must have been 3 or 4. I locked myself in the bathroom and i was going through the medicine cabinet. I got a hold of my mom's lipstick and started applying the lipstick every where on my lips. In the end, i made a huge mess; i tried cleaning my lips with tissue paper but ended smearing the red lipstick everywhere on my face! I remember looking like a cherry. My mom later found me in the bathroom and got hella pissed. To remove the stains, she had to use a dish sponge and scrubbed my face with the coarse part of the sponge. I learned my lesson that day.

Your favorite blogs

There's a only a few that i regularly follow...

Cupcakes and Cashmere: The title says it all; fashion and food. In the world of blogging, Emily Schuman is definitely a blogger that i admire. Not only does her taste in fashion is similar to mine, but i love the combination affordability and high end; making everything about this blog so lovely. I would raid her shoe closet anytime!

The Sartorialist: Scott Schuman is not named one of Time Magazine's Top 100 Design Influencers for nothing. I would literally die if i had the honor to have my pictures taken by him and be part of the blog. A girl can only dream... -sigh-

Le Love: It's funny how so many people can relate to the greatness and the downfalls of love. I, like a lot of the readers out there, have connected to the stories posted on many occasions. It's all good, words-right-outta-my-mouth good.

The Black Hipsters: Created by a good friend of mine, Nyce and her bff B.Hooligan. It's all about fashion, humor, music and street within the black community (though anyone, of any color can relate to the content posted). This blog is truly ground breaking and i'm so proud of what they've accomplish so far.
p.s You know you're cool when you get a special shout out (hehe)

Smitten Kitchen: Two words: food porn.

and lastly, twinnie's blog. The one person that 'gets' me. She's my person :)

Day Thirteen

Somewhere you'd like to move or visit.

London.

I'd pick London over any places in the world, anytime. I don't know what attracts me so much to the city though. The obsession must have dated back when i was around 6 or 7. Music was a big part of my life during that time and of all the artists, the Spice Girls was definitely one of those who made me jump on the pop culture bandwagon. I would always watch Top Of The Pops and EastEnders on BBC. I'd imagine myself meeting the Royal family and pretended to have the English accent as well (which was mediocre). I just love the vibrancy and the multiculturalism of the city. London is a real melting pot of cultures and the closest thing, in my opinion, that resemble Montreal. I remember begging my parents to send me to this student exchange program just so i can study in London for six months. Now that i'm older, i guess i can simply save enough and travel Europe by myself.

Day Twelve

Bullet your whole day.

Woke up today around 9ish, like usual. Went online to see if my grades were posted. Went through my internet routine: email, twitter, fb, weather and blogger. Helped my mom prepare lunch around noon. After lunch, laid on my bed and started reading a book. Got a text from my friend around 2 saying he's about to leave for our gift exchange dinner party of tonight. Rushed to the bathroom and took a really quick shower. Got ready in 25 min (hair and makeup included) - a new record for me.

Now, i'm be off to dinner. Lots of drinking, laughter and sex conversations are guaranteed for the night. Ha!

Day Eleven

Put your Ipod on shuffle and write ten songs that pop up.

1. Wish - Vibe


2. Begin - DBSK (♥ ♥ ♥)


3. Deuces - Chris Brown feat. Tyga


4. Marry You - Glee (cast version)


5. You Don't Miss Your Water - Craig David


6. I Wanna Be With You - Mandy Moore


7. Aqui Estoy Yo - Luis Fonci


8. Sexy Love - Ne-Yo


9. Endlessly - B44


10. Waiting For You - Anson Hu


As you can see, I'm a sucker for the classic sappy pop songs. No shame!

Day Ten

I'm giving myself a new challenge: finish the 15 days challenge before 2011! This will sure keep me busy for the next five days :P

Discuss you first love and your first kiss.

The word love in different contexts means completely different things. For example, I don't love my friends and family the same way i love fashion. I don't love music the same way i love my new pair of Stuart Weitzman pumps (in fact, my love for shoes goes deep). What i'm trying to say is that this is such an open ended question, i will treat it as such.

He's my first love. I did not just had a crush of him like i had a crush on Nick Carter that same year. It was different. It was love. Of course you would all say that at the tender age of 6 you don't get any notion of the word "love" and all that jazz. But now that i really think of it; the fluttering butterflies in my stomach at the sight of the rose, the twinkles in my eyes every time he would pop-up on screen, the way he would call Serena "Meatball head" - sigh. Darien aka The Tuxedo Mask was my first love. Because of him, i started seeing boys as of being more than just cooties and germs.

As far as my first kiss goes, it was not spectacular like i pictured it to be. It actually caught me by surprise and i remembered how daze i was after it (and not in a good way). Nothing can be perfect the first time. I told myself it had to start somewhere. My first "passionate" kiss however is a different story. All i have to say is that it was very satisfying. On many, MANY levels...

Holidays

This holiday season, i couldn't have asked for more than to simply spend some quality time with the people that i love. Although Christmas this year is less festive than last year, i'm very thankful to have my family and friends by my side to share the joy, the laughter and the happiness. It's not about the gifts, but about those moments that makes the holiday season a memorable one.

Have a happy and safe holiday everyone! :)

Hello, Ryan

The last time i bought GQ was when Robert Pattinson was on the cover (post here). I haven't paid attention to the magazine since my post-twilight phase. Last evening, i spotted their new issue on my friend's coffee table in his apartment.

All i have to say is that Mario Testino worked his magic once again. Ryan Gosling is beyond delicious in this shoot; we kept flipping through the magazine back and forth just to feed our eyes and be at awe. I'm not even a big fan of his, but GQ did a hella good job at converting me into one. Just sayin' ;)

I'm A Masochist

In love relationships, there is a fine line between pleasure and pain. In fact, there's a common belief that a relationship without pain is a relationship not worth having. To some, pain implies growth. But how do we know when the growing pain stops and the pain pain takes over? Are we masochist or optimist if we decide to walk that fine line? The question that i should be asking is this: When it comes to relationships, whether it's mutual or platonic, how do you know when enough is enough?

Somewhere along the way, i told myself it might be over. But i'm addicted to the pain. The exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable. There are times when i get a sudden rush to just reach out. Ask him to think and care about me. Give me the attention. Make me believe that we're worth it. Prove to me that he is worth it. But lately, particularly in those moments, i feel like i'm being tied down. Some part of me just holds me back knowing that i might had gone too far, that i am asking for too much. Reached my limit.

Humans are fragile beings. We can only hold so much in.

Enough is enough when you begin to put yourself in the shoes of the person who you're waiting for and reject the possibility of being happy with someone new and amazing.

Paris-to-Go

Although i would usually keep my makeup in a separate pouch, my dream handbag would consist of all of these goodies.

- Mulberry Alexa handbag
- Canon PowerShot G12
- Blackberry Bold
- NARS The Mutiple bronzer/blush
- Yves Saint Laurent Gloss Pur
- Bobby Brown concealer
- Yves Saint Laurent Letter Post wallet

Rap Basics

This...is amazing. (Big thank you to Ginger for putting this song in my head @ work!)

The Same Book

H 1:28am : =//

Me 1:29am: i told myself that i will allow to agonize about it as much as i can before 2011 lol

H 1:29am: lol

Me 1:30am: ill turn the page and write a new chapter after that.

H 1:30am: that sounds good but u know.. unless its a new book.. ure always gonna flip back to that page.

When Harry Met Sally

"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."

All i want for Christmas is a Harry...

Sometimes

nuff said.

Like A Star

Sometimes, you're whole world seems to collapse. For a simple inch, for a hopeless love, for a lover that left you after fucking your soul out, for kiddish dreams. Sometimes, you put yourself into some weird situations. You're pulling of a nasty luggage. Your life suddenly looks desperate like those you've seen in a bad underrated movies. The one that regular people try to avoid. All that jazz. The one that you try to not run into because you want to save your soul and your karma. Every once and then, I feel like my head is going to explode under the pressure. The pressure that I created to myself. My brain is calm like bomb, ticking to its very last seconds.

In those moment of insecurities, i feel granted that this type of song exists. In fact, they feel like a warm blanket, a balm on my shivering lips. Thanks Corinne. You pretty much saved my day.

The Countdown

I want to try and cross this one of the list this year (see here)

Dear You, You and You

Because this is what i partially need to get off my mind before the finals.

Individual #1: I don't think it's a coincidence anymore that i bump into you every so often. In fact, don't you think that it's a bit too weird how we would always run into each other? I started investigating further when i got these sms from you saying (and i quote): "From where i'm sitting, i can see you're the prettiest girl in the library." or "Your smile is just as radiant as that sequin skirt you are wearing." and finally "You don't have to come and say hi to me. Ever since the day that i met you, you had me a hello." When i inquired you about this, you simply said it was meant to be. After thinking for a very long time, i came to the conclusion that it's NOT a coincidence but it was definitely MEANT to happen because YOU made it happen. Now, there's a reason why i don't reply to those sms: Persistence is a turn off.

Individual #2: Our conversations are always amazing and diverse. You always seem to know what and what not to say. You have a way of making the people around you feel smart and there's no complexity whatsoever in the way you think. Honestly, it is people like you that i'm attracted to the most (you get bonus points for your amazing talent and cute smile). Yet these past few days, you have troubled my thoughts. Since our last conversation, I'm still trying to figure out if your intentions were meant for my well being or simply yours. To be honest i was fine being in my cocoon until you disrupted it. I had a hard time swallowing the truth but as you can see, i am slowly accepting it even though it hurts. Even if i were to say yes, i would be doing it for all the wrong reasons. We're not going to make something out of it if none of our heart is mend yet. From what i see, yours is far from being healed. I don't know what will happen in the future (in fact, i hate anything that is premeditated), but i believe in chances. Therefore, i hope we keep in touch. If it's meant to be, it will happen. We will only know until then.

Individual #3: I miss the beginning; how we went from being complete strangers to building a great long lasting friendship. I miss working together; how we would blast kpop in the store and team Friday. I miss the daily texting; whether it is about the most random things, your text would always put a smile on my face. I miss our long talks over the phone and how we would talk without even realizing how late it is because we said that it’s never too late to call each other. I miss listening to you whine like a 10 year old while you’re playing your video games. I miss having coffee and sitting at our usual table at Timmy’s. I miss having ice cream in the summer at the gelato place near the river. I miss playing the iPod game and trying to do the dance moves in the car. I miss going to ctown for some bbtea and nutella toast. I miss how you would always teach me something new that you learned in class. I miss spending time with your family because they simply remind me of mine. I miss our deep conversations and having to open ourselves up to each other. I miss how you would always pull on a strand of my hair and act innocent. I miss the way you would look at me like I’m the most special person in your life. I miss how you would delicately kiss my forehead. I miss how you would suddenly pull me up against you and we would hug for a really long time… I don’t know if it’s because of school that I’m thinking too much or simply because i’m a nostalgic person, but I always find myself thinking about all those times we’d spent together during the past months. I’ve come to realize how much I miss it and i need it right now.

On Repeat

These three songs are added to my Infinite Playlist (see post here). Of all the people out there, i deserve it less.

Day Nine

Technically, i should be done with my 15 days challenge today if i had posted daily. Knowing that i would have to buried myself under my books for the next 3 weeks (and only if i don't procrastinate) i will cheat a bit and update whenever i can from now on.

How you hope your future will be like?
Unpredictable.

I want it to be an experience where i can grow, learn and see as many things as i could. As long as i'm happy and satisfied, i believe i can live a peaceful life with no worries. Besides, if things where to happen, it will be for a reason. Good or bad.

Midnight Coffee

Same place, same time, a different conversation.

He says i'm one of a kind. I tell him we're not all that different.
He says i have a contagious smile. I tell him that there's a lot behind it.
He says i'm making a mistake. I tell him that i want to learn from my mistake.
He says i deserve better. I tell him we all deserve better.
He says he wants me to be happy and not suffer. I tell him that i find happiness in my sufferings.
He says he'll fight for me. I tell him it's a battle he has already lost.
He says he'll wait until i'm ready. I tell him i know what it's like to wait.
He says he wants to be an exception. I tell him i already have an exception.

Day Eight

A moment when you felt most satisfied with your life.
I don't think there's a specific moment or i simply haven’t had it yet. So far it’s been about moments that take your breath away and my standards are not that high or complicated so that hasn’t been an issue to obtain.

I think the moment i will feel satisfied with my life would be after i’ve experienced/lived through the miracle of birth, one day sitting in my living room, while the baby is sleeping, i will be holding a cup of tea and i would be staring at my front yard; thanking God for that moment.

Frankly speaking, nothing can compare to that moment. That bliss that you’ve accomplished it all and will have to endure much harder circumstances and occurrences. It will be the beginning of no ends, of worrying about another life more than your own. About finally loving someone unconditionally without meaning or reason. It’s the direction i’d like to follow somehow, someday. To have a family of my own, that i can truly be proud of, and would sacrifice everything to.

Regret

c:Le Love

Day Seven

Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

You’re born under the sign of Libra, which represents the element of air, or the intellect. You’re most definitely a thinker — you like to use your mind to tackle problems. Libra is the seventh sign of the zodiac, which refers to relationships of all sorts and your connection to the world around you.

People know you as someone who loves to socialise. Your outgoing nature and love of communicating brilliant ideas to people around you is one of your strengths. You’re rarely at a loss for words … even on your worst day you have the gift of the gab!

You not only have the ability to share your ideas in a very natural way; you also have charm in the way you convey your feelings. This is another of your very positive traits. Even people who don’t agree with what you have to say can’t resist you and will usually behave well around you — you’re simply a nice person.

Your love of communication makes you an excellent mediator and negotiator. Coupled with the fact that you’re always reasonable in the way you deal with people, this means your friends and co-workers can always depend on your having a balanced viewpoint, even in the fiercest of arguments.

In fact, if there’s a problem with you, it comes out of the fact that you’re so good at seeing all the sides of a problem and staying impartial. This makes it hard for you to commit to one side of an argument — you don’t want to be seen as biased, and you want everyone to like you! What ends up happening is that the way you get everyone’s approval is by agreeing with everyone. This is not a good idea, because you’re agreeing to things for the wrong reasons: to keep everyone on side, rather than because you’re firmly committed to something. Try not to do this, because it can mess up your dealings with people. You don’t need to bend over so far just to be accepted.

When you get to know people, you are perfectly comfortable sharing your feelings with them, and you’ll go to some trouble to make them feel at ease. You create harmony in your environment to match the harmony in your character.

This relates to the fact that your ruling planet is Venus. This is a soft and gracious planet, and feminine by nature. Your softer side is expressed in pretty much everything you do — the way you entertain guests, the type of home furnishings you like to buy, the clothes you wear and even your personal grooming. All these things express the natural flair and grace which is part of that Venus temperament. There’s no way others won’t notice your style. People see you as elegant and tasteful — and that’s people who know you well as well as people who’ve just met you.

You often make a great first impression because you are such a good communicator and connect so easily with people; this makes you an ace networker. Some people believe you must have an ulterior motive because you are dealing with so many people at once, but it’s really just that you absolutely love socialising and partying. You are a real ‘people person’.

Because Venus is the planet of love, you seek love this in everything you do, and particularly in relationships. Finding your soulmate is a big dream, perhaps even your most significant life mission — you will go to great lengths to meet lots and lots of people. Who knows where you’ll find the right one? You have a lot to give to the person you feel is your perfect match.

Libra is a movable air sign, which means there’s creativity in you. You are quick to grasp ideas, and you have a need to produce works of art and unusual or original things. You bring a touch of art to anything you do. Remember to incorporate this part of you into all your life’s activities; you’ll be richly rewarded.

Somewhat accurate :)